User blog:Joeaikman/So...

Erm hello. This is an awkward blog for me to type as the stuff in here is stuff I wouldn't usually tell anybody but some good friends here have encouraged me to write this so the res of you are aware of reasonings behind my behaviour when I may be stubborn or obnoxious.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome at age 6. That means I struggle with social communication at the best of times. It also means I am more probe to what some would call childish temper tantrums. I don't use Aspergers as an excuse for how I behave and I have never seemed to have done so. However the impacts of finding out about the Aspergers have meant I have lead a vs solitary childhood. I had 1 friend for most of it and logs him gwhen we went to different high schools.

Whilst at high school I was subject to a lot of physical abuse. When I was 10 I was pushed in a canal. It's for that reason that I lead into my final point.

Since about 6 months ago I have been self harming. It offers a release from the emotional pain other people cause me and makes me feel better. The past month I have been trying to stop and as such has made me have an even shorter fuse than usual.

This isn't me attention whoring.