User blog:Tesla Man/Off The Topic: ...

Hey guys, i guess you guys can consider this an apology or excuse of some sorts. I would just like to tell you guys a little something about me I'd like you all to know before i do another stupid thing :P

Last week, my doctor diagnosed me with schizophrenia. It's not a really bad case, but i still have it. For those of you not familiar, Schizo is a mental disorder in which it's hard to distinguish reality from imagination, to think clearly, and to act normal in situations (as in not having correct emotional responses).

For about a year now, i was also diagnosed with paranoia. So i feel like I'm in a tight box where if i leave something bad will happen, and even if i know nothing bad will happen, I'm still to paranoid to leave. It's really annoying.

Both of these mental illnesses affect your leadership and judgment skills. I feel like everybody is out to get me and i imagine that they are, which my imagination blends with reality, so i feel like i'm entirely trapped. It's been really bad recently. I wont leave my apartment to go get food or to work.

Now, this is definitely not that bad, or at least the worst it can be, though it's still very tough to work. And please don't try making me feel better in the comments, because i want to deal with it alone and face it myself. Now i also mentioned this affects my leadership skills. This is why i haven't been the greatest person recently. My paranoia is killing me and it's hard for me to do things, so i apologize for anything that will or have happened because of it.

So yeah, just wanted to tell you guys. Thank you! :)

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