User blog:Jake MultiSuperVids/My Outlook and Why I Feel The Way I Do

I won't take much of your time here, don't worry. Nor is this a leaving blog or anything like that. I just wanted to get some things out.

It doesn't take much research or digging to know that a lot of bad things have happened recently in the community. Trent. Gordon. Joey. TJ. Jorn. Lexi. Xina. Dani. While all of these in combination have been bad to everyone, and I don't doubt it, I just thought I'd let everyone know why all these things happening all at once is stressful and upsetting to me that makes it seem that I'm saying the "Wiki is dying" or "crummy community".

If you haven't guessed yet, one of the big reasons Wach even made his "Recent Problems" blog was because I said those things to him in PM when it didn't quite hit me how SAD it made me, instead focusing on how annoyed I was.

I have these feelings simply because of how long I've been here and all the stuff I've seen happen to this place over the years. Since my AWC days, MultiSuperVids, Captain Coder, MSV II, Jake MSV, I've been through many users and maybe have gotten too sentimental for them. I've met and saw leave many people such as MrA, Shoop, RTP, Lab, AG, Dexter, etc. If they haven't left, they've changed and I've grown apart from them. I remember the days when Scraw, Night, Tesla, hell, even trolls like Samis and Lerooy I considered really close friends and great parts of the community, now I feel distant from and even hated by some.

As I said above, maybe I judge to much in people's friendships and am just too sentimental, but moments like this where it seems half of my wiki friends are depressed beyond belief and the other half seem to be ignoring everything and not caring, make me very sad and feel awful that a community I've been in since I started going on the Internet frequently is now this. Ever since Summer of 2013, I feel it's steadily gotten worse. I'd be lying if I said that "Nikki" was never a great friend that I felt awful about everytime I felt I upset her in someway. Hearing about today's discovery really has made me feel darker about the wiki because she was a close friend.

So yeah, take it as you will. I felt you guys should be let known what I believe here and why I had the "aloof" attitude at first. The only reason I react so strongly is because I care so much about everything here. If you guys see the Wiki in a different light, please comment below, as I need it.

I love you guys, and I'm sorry you've all had to go through the bad things you've had to.