User blog:Icey778/Why I've Been Depressed?

Hey I Guess..
Even now I sigh as I make this. I feel a little selfish making it too and I'm fighting off depression now. I could never commit suicide, but I kinda lost the ability to speak yesterday irl. Due to health problems and anxiety towards pain this is what has brought me to this. I apologize if I made anyone angry however those that wish to keep a grudge if any, I'm sorry I can't do much more. I'm trying to fix myself and with all that's been going on and me trying to face my demons things are rough. I don't feel like roleplaying or being much on this wiki. Today I felt like doing nothing, but lamenting. I also blew it and lost myself 2 days ago. I was too strict on myself with mistakes and just starting to self loathe myself. I also just forgot my purpose, I was a mess basically. So yeah this is what's been going on with me. I really want to end my depression and move on because I don't want to feel worthless anymore. I will try to stay strong fight this as best I can, and I will still contribute here everyday. Because despite my many flaws I really do want to be a good person and care for so many people irl and online.

If TL:DR:
Icey lost himself is depressions due to serious life events and is sorry to those he lashed out at.