User blog:Silent Mocker/I don't know

I just don't know what to do lately I been more stressed despite being on summer holidays. I've been feeling that I don't know myself that everything is a lie. Am I even sane most of the here and irl I just sound like a hyper kid who just discovered 4chan. Am I even real is the world even the way I seem. This had been happening ever since one of my "friends" on Snapchat called me a retard and made mocking jestures and told me that no one is my friend and that they all act like that so I wouldn't get upset and I starting thinking about my "girlfriend" and how its only when we were going supposed to be going on a date when he finally revealed she wasn't really my girlfriend. I've also not been more depressed don't worry not a whole but a bit. I need help